So violin lesson on Tuesday was a major major wake up call. After Aussieland I seem to have lost it; my hands are crammy and I can’t react to things and even though I understand what he was trying to correct, I can’t do it. He got pissed, I got disappointed. Almost cried but I was giving myself the excuse that I just returned 2 days ago and I’m still a little wonked out by Aussieland. These are but excuses though. Audition’s in three weeks’ time. For the past year I’ve been fluctuating between “care” and “don’t care” about getting in but suddenly it all sets in and I really, really want to get through. Everyone says I will for sure but that’s a hard statement. It puts the pressure on, more than anything else.
